6 Months Letter To James

To my dearest little man, James

6 months ago you were sitting in this very room only hours after we brought you home from the hospital. You were so tiny, all 6 lbs 14 oz of you, dressed in your tiny newborn clothes that seemed to swallow you up. We had you wrapped up like a little burrito, snug and warm so you could feel protected. Your little head fit perfectly in my hand and you were born with smooth silky hair that reminded me of a new little puppy's fur. Your dad and I just sat there watching you, completely unsure what to do next.... 

We got to the hospital on time, and I had you only 3 hours after arriving. Your birth was in the birthing pool and you came out as healthy as could be, screaming your little lungs out. I can still remember the very distinct, intoxicating, newborn smell that you had when I first got to hold you, and it was unlike anything that I've ever smelled before. I couldn't stop looking at you. You were so much more beautiful than I ever imagined you to be. Nothing could prepare me for the feelings that flooded through me as I looked you over for the first time, and there are no words that could ever describe it. From that day on, time has only gone by quicker and quicker. Before I knew it you were a month old, 3 months, now 6!

Everyday that I pick you up from your crib for the first time, you seem to change and grow over night. And every morning I completely fall in love with you more and more. Your personality develops and you show us new little pieces of yourself, you're like a little flower that's blooming very slowly over the months. It's so hard for me to believe that you've been here for 6 months already. It's almost impossible to look back at the life we had before you arrived. It's like you've been with us forever, but yet so new at the same time. To us you seem so old, so big, so silly, so much your own little person with likes and dislikes, to everyone else: you're still very much a little baby. 

Looking back, you have changed me into such a different person that I used to be. I can't believe the patience that you've taught me. You have taught me how to look at the world through your eyes, new and big and exciting! It absolutely cracks me up the way you turn your head to look at cars and people and wheels on things and puppies while we're taking walks with the stroller. Your desire to grow and get around is astonishing. I can be out of the room while you're on the floor for 5 minutes and you've managed to get to a toy across the floor. It's like you come up with new tricks every day. Like you've been scheming and making plans in that little head of yours for days and then you finally get to try your skills out. I can't believe how much you've learned in the past 6 months! I can't believe how much I've learned in the past 6 months as well! I'm just thinking of how quickly the next 6 months will go by and how many more new things you will learn in that time span. 

You have truly made our lives better than we could have ever imagined them to be. You are the most amazing thing that's ever happened to us and we still are just in awe that you're ours. We are so happy and privileged to call you our son! We love you with everything we've got and are looking forward to the next 6 months and beyond with you.